Aashnaa

I was on a seashore waiting for waves to hit me right on my face so that I could bring myself back to life and to reality. Meanwhile I lost my sanity. I stood there, staring at the huge, large ocean gazing at me and unspokenly conveying my insignificance in life. I wondered, what would I do if it got me out of my land and made me strive! The fear of ocean was making unwanted noises in my head! Oh! poor me! What if this and what if that?! I started looking at the ocean with anguish and dredd! The waves then came to hit me and made me wet! The violence was similar to a flower bed! I realised, half of the pain that was there in my head would be dealt with a minor intellect! Like the ocean, life seems to be an unending entity that causes fear in my heart! The fear of losing, the fear of falling apart! I closed my eyes and took a deep breath! I felt the positivity behind the harsh fate and envisaged it as a beautiful wreath! ~Ayushi

Kuch waqt se dil iss khayal mein mubtala hai ki vo bachpan ki numaish se dil bharta nahi tha par ab inn shehron ki har din ki numaishon ne dilon ko bezaar kar dia hai.  Mera ek sawaal hamesha se raha tha unse jo tasveron se ya apne zubaan se apne aas paas ke logon ko ehsaas-e-kamtari ka shikaar bana dete hain ki kya tumhe iss baat se khauf nahi ata ki Jo bhi iss duniya mein ata Kiya Gaya hai vo vapis bhi liya ja sakta hai..ya fir agar vo sab ata kia gaya hai toh uska maksad mazloomon ki madad karna bhi ho sakta hai naaki zamaane mein numaish lagane ke liye. Shayad isiliye guroor ko sabse bada aib mana gaya hai...kyunki guroor hi insaan ko sahi-galat aur jayaz-nazayaz sochne ke kaabil nahi chorta. Insaan zarre ke jitni zindagi ko bhi inhi bebuniyaad baaton se aur dikhave ki dewaaro se dhak kar uski khoobsoorti ko kho deta hai.. Insaan toh fir insaan hi hai na!!

Khamoshi ki chadar oodh kar aaj main apne aas paas ki hoti hui cheezo aur logon ko mehsoos kar rahi hoon.  Khamoshi aksar hume humse apna raabta mazboot karne mein madat karti hai...Vo raabta Jo maut Tak saath rehta hai aur uske baad bhi. Shayad jis baat se main mayoos hun, naumeed hoon, uss baat ki ahmiyat ek zarre se bhi kam hai. Zindagi rukti nahi, na hi hamare aas pas ki duniya...mere gham ka ye lamha un hazaro lamho mein se ek hai Jo agle hi pal guzar jayega.. Beete inn lamho ke sath mere Dil ne bhi ab sabr ki ayat ko yaad kar liya hai aur sath hi Faiz Ahmed Faiz ke in alfaazon ko bhi Jo mere besukoon dil ko sukoon deti hai...!

She laughs, but when needed! She dresses up, but not for the crowd! She loves, but keeps her dignity safe! She speaks, but not to hurt others! She cries, but has a firm personality outside! "Can you ever understand a women?" They said, " yes if you read what is beneath the beauty" I responded! With the shallow walls of expectations, she managed to make her way to the world of her dreams again!. I have always wondered what an ideal women should be like, look like, speak like and dress like!? but never really came to a conclusion for this complicated and sensitive question since I have met a lot of women who define being a women in a completely unique manner which keeps bringing new perspectives and opinions to my life regarding them. After having observed a bunch of women in my life, I created a version for myself which I hope I am able to adapt and live with. I believe that women have the kindest heart and a lot of love to give to the humans around them, specially w...

Surprisingly, 2022 brought a lot of firsts in my life in various different ways. Some of which became best memories and some became best lessons!. The best part was that each of them had something to offer to me!  Life has almost been a rollar coaster in the past few months. It is surreal when life makes you realize that nothing is permanent, whatever given, can be taken back in a blink of an eye.  While I have been going through such stormy days, I decided to take a pause and write down a series of blogs that describes my life experiences after coming to Noida. This blog will be the first one which will talk about few of my experiences so far. It makes me feel numb when I think of my innocent self who stepped into a metro city for the first time ever, only to welcome a whole new box of learnings and thunderbolts that life had to introduce to me!  In the first few months I felt as if life had gifted me all the freedom of the world and I could travel, cook, dance, read and...

It was a rainy day...sky was crystal clear.. weather was beautiful. They were walking across the lake.. talking... laughing.. teasing each other. He teased her for being short and she gazed intently almost giving a warning glare to him! And she started hitting his chest in a casual fun way. He started laughing and with every punch...one on his chest another on his tummy, the other his left chest , his laughter increased and she just kept looking at him smiling and hitting. That laughter..oh dear that laughter...that natural.. joyful.. innocent..pure.. beautiful laughter..how could she ever forget it? Can anyone ever forget their beloved's laughter? Her heart prayed for that laughter to remain forever on his face for her to witness. His eyes carrying a childlike innocence...his cheeks glowing..his handsome face looking even more beautiful with that one fascinating and alluring laugh. I love you..and I want you to stay like this forever.. happy She whispered in her heart ❤️ Was this ...

Why do nights have this beautiful healing powers.? Why do I feel at peace during these hours when the whole world is quiet? Why my heart aches a bit less when I remember you now? Why?  Why this world is full of uncertainties...every relationship...love..dreams.. desires.. people...trust.. everything is uncertain in a wierd and scary way..why so? Why sometimes this life looks like sand running of my hands...the more I close it , the more sand comes out, faster it comes out and oh oh dear I cannot hold it anymore..it's on the ground ..I can't take it all back..all I can do is let it go..just go.... Isn't this life? Yes this is life... everything is uncertain ..every bit of our life..I think that's the reason that I have stopped holding it tighter ...and started to watch it falling down... beautifully.. Everything is uncertain except this one power..this one supreme power...who is certain and forever..I give myself to him ..I surrender myself.. ~Ayushi